“Now what?”

Usually people grow up knowing what they want to be when they grow up. A doctor, a teacher, an actor, a singer, a princess…you get the idea. I was no exception. Thanks to my wonderful parents, I grew up with dreams and goals in mind. It wasn’t until the fall of 2011 that those dreams and goals died. They died because I was old enough to know what was going on with my heart and body and that I might not ever even get the chance to fulfill them. Well obviously, all of that changed one year, two months, and twenty days ago.

Rachel, my sister, has been getting ready to leave for school in a week. Many of my friends are almost graduated from their programs. Several friends are getting engaged, married, and having kids. I have had very mixed emotions about all of this exciting news. I am super happy for all of them but at the same time I don’t want them to move forward with their lives because mine isn’t anywhere close to where it “should be” yet. I figured because my life took a momentary pause that everyone else’s lives should do the same thing.  Oh boy, was I wrong! Life moved on without me. How dare it, right?!

With all of the changes and growing up that is going on around me, I too have made the scary decision to move forward. I had a few doctor appointments last weekend. After my clinic on Thursday, I took a campus tour. I have decided that I am going to be attending LDS Business College in Salt Lake! I want to study Interior Design. If you know me at all, you know that I really enjoy furniture, colors, fabrics and designing. They have a two year program that looks intense, stressful and challenging, but it is what I want to do. They have two different times I can start. In the fall (September) or in the winter (January). My original plan was to work this year and then start school next fall. After the tour and talking with several of the students, I felt like I couldn’t put it off. But I also knew that I wouldn’t be able to start in a month…..

I made the decision to aim at starting school in January of 2015. I decided to fast and pray about the decision I had made. Not to know if I had made a good choice (because I knew it was what I need to do next), but to let me know if I needed to stay in Pocatello longer than January. I didn’t feel anything that went against my plan, so I have started applying! I am freaking out but I am so excited!

I always made a joke out of it whenever someone asks me what I am doing or what I am going to do with my life. Before last week, the answer was always “oh you know, hang out, go to school, get married and have a happy family” but now my answer has changed and I can confidently say, “I am going to go to LDSBC in January to study Interior Design, hopefully meet my best friend who will also be the man of my dreams, get married to him and have a happy family!”

*Insert important testimony about Heavenly Fathers’ plan for me*

Have a wonderful week!!!!





Hahah! I’m just kidding. Don’t worry. I’m going to share my testimony!

I know that my Father loves me and wants me to be happy. I know that He has a plan for me. I know that we have agency for a reason. Agency is the ability to choose what we want and don’t want. I know that the main goal is the same no matter what path we take: Eternal Life. In my opinion, His plan isn’t just a straight line from point A to point B, but kind of more like a river or the freeway. There are many different twists, turns, and detours that we could possibly take in our journeys. We may go down one road that turns away from the goal but there are so many ways to get back on track. I know that if we are righteous and faithful, Heavenly Father will help guide us to where we need to be. I am so grateful to have His guidance and help in my life.

4 thoughts on ““Now what?”

  1. Sarah, I’m glad your following your gut feeling and going to school to follow your dream of interior design! I wish you the best along the way! Your right it’s tough to figure out what path to follow…believe me I struggle with it everyday! Just follow your dreams I know you will do well. I think that’s the key to happiness. 🙂 Shane Alexander

  2. Some of is never ever figured out what to do next. Life sort of unfolded on its own for me, just as it has with you! At what speed it unfolds isn’t my time table, I guess. You are rocking it lady! I am excited for you. Come and rescue my house when you are done with school!

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